My Grandma Goforth and Mom's burial 10/12/10

The urns were displayed so niceThe vault they were placed in together
The beautiful monument
Grandma,

I just cannot believe that you are gone I feel like a piece of me went with you. You were the woman that molded me, taught me, cared for me and inspired me. I am filled with regret that you were not able to meet my little man Ryker and that he will never be able to make the memories with you that I have. I know you would have adored him. I am also so sorry that I did not know how sick you were and please know that if I would have known I would have been by your side. You played a HUGE part in raising me throughout my childhood years, Dad was hard at work building a successful business and Mom was driven to accomplish her goals of becoming one the best RN's, leaving me with sharing so much time with you. I hardly have any childhood memories without you and I am so thankful and blessed for that.

I have so many memories Grandma that I will always cherish…. I remember lying in bed with you all snuggled up and I would jiggle your cold arms back and forth to put me to sleep (you would always say I loved to jiggle your arm fat). You would always make me the best cherry pies and it made me feel so special that you would always think of me and make one whenever I came to visit. I loved going to bingo with you and I thought it was so neat you would let me help you win big. You and Aunt Shelia took me on my only family vacation as a little kid to Disney Land. You walked me to and from school every day and I remember picking up all the coins we could find. There are so many, many more precious memories I have of you that I will hold close to my heart forever.

I know you lived a difficult life from Grandpa leaving to losing Aunt Shelia but you were always so strong. You were such a hard working homemaker and caretaker that I believe really inspired me. I have had a lot of time to reminisce and I truly believe that your life was my dream. Both of parents are so driven to become successful business people but not me I knew I always wanted to be a mom and take care of my family. Sometimes I feel bad that I did not have the motivation to go further with school but I believe it's because you taught me family is the most important thing in life. I am so honored to follow in your footsteps and raise my boy to become a GREAT man. Thank you Grandma for all that you have taught and shared with me and most of all for loving me. You were the BEST Grandma anyone could ever ask for and I am so blessed and grateful that you are mine! I know you are my angel looking down on me and watching over all of the family. I hope I make you proud. I have such comfort in knowing you are not in any pain anymore and that you can be with Grandpa, Aunt Shelia and Mom again. I love and miss you more than you will ever know!

Love your Emmie




Mom,

I wish I could understand the pain you were obviously going through. I cannot imagine how it must have felt to take care of your mother and sister up until they passed away and to go through all your cancer issues you definitely did not have it easy Mom. You were so unbelievably strong and driven. I am also so grateful to you for taking such great care of Aunt Shelia and Grandma. It's a blessing that you were the BEST RN there is because you were able to care for them so well. I always knew Grandma was in the best hands and being so many miles apart from you it gave me such peace. I wish that we had lived closer so that I could have been there to help care for Grandma and you.

I know you loved us girls the best way you knew how and I know you wanted so much for us. I hope we can make you proud as you watch over us now. I know our lives are much simpler than you wanted but this is the path we want to take. I am blessed to have had you as a mother and I truly looked up to you for all your medical expertise, advice with handling family issues and for just being there when I needed to talk. I am so grateful that in the month before you passed we had a couple of the best and longest phone conversations. It was so fun to laugh, joke and cry with you.

I really hope Mom you knew and still know you were loved so much and that your job here was not done. I wish I could have helped you deal with not being able to handle it anymore. I am so sorry.

As we cleaned out your house it was amazing to find all our childhood memories you kept that we never knew about. I am grateful and touched that you held on to our stuff and our Dad’s belongings through all the moves you made.

Mom I want you to know I do not want my heart to be filled with anger but just love. I will never understand why you chose to leave this earth but I pray that you know you were loved because you were unconditionally loved. I will miss you more than you will ever know. If you needed to be with your parents and sister I understand and I forgive you. But please, please know I love you. Please watch over all of us…. I know you will.

Love your baby girl